I have been anxious and nervous all weekend about my first solo class at a new/non-established location tomorrow. But, well, here's what just happened.
Going about my evening being anxious and overly cautious about being ready for tomorrow night. Cleaning up the bedroom, putting my gym bag back in order with all the necessities for tomorrows class. Wondering what to pack for lunch tomorrow. *twitch*
Monday.
Tomorrow.
The staff meeting day.
The SCARY staff meeting day.
The everything could change staff meeting day.
Holy. Crapballs. My mind is BLOWN.
I've been so busy worrying about Zumba class that I forgot to be worried about the my whole job might change after tomorrow thing.
I mean, I guess it's good that I focused on the stuff I can fix, change, or keep from going badly but OUCH does it hurt when the real anxiety pops it's head up.
I know there's nothing I can do about it. The die has already been cast. It's out of my hands. Enter platitudes here.
It's still scary but it'll be over and out in the open tomorrow somewhere around noon.
All this changes is that I don't have to worry about packing lunch tomorrow. Just need to worry about healthy snacks and my bottles of magic blue water and a small stash of Xanax in my purse just in case the worst case is the actual case.
I'm about to get in to bed, snuggle up with uncle Ambien and hopefully get some solid sleep. Before I head to the gallows.
How about people out there in the internet wild -
- Have you ever coped with a major stressor by focusing on a smaller more easily controlled stressor?
- What are some of the weirdest ways you've dealt with stress?
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