I registered today for the Zumba Instructor Conference in Miami in August. I wasn't going to register. I kept balking on the money side of things but the truth is... I was scared to death of going.
Why? Because I still fight EVERY. SINGLE. CLASS. with feeling like the fat instructor.
I say that and it sounds like I'm whining... but it is a real issue for me. I'm highly insecure in my own skin sometimes. I know once I'm in front of a room of folks I get in to my groove and own it but there are times when the thought of getting in front of that room makes me want to cry.
I'm committed and I keep going back but there are days when I feel like I should just hide in the back of the room.
Thursday night I got to class late and I walked in to a room with 70+ students and I froze for half a second. So many new students. I felt like they were all wishing I was any other instructor. When I got up there though I put my game face on and worked them out and it was one of the hottest classes I've ever taught solo.
So if I feel like that in a class in the studio where I work how am I going to survive a room full of highly trained fitness professionals? I even have minor panic attacks at big master classes... now this?
It's going to be rough but I know it's going to be worth the stock I'll need in Xanax to get in to the groove.
I'm psyched because I get to bring back AMAZING tips, tools and moves from the best of the best. I can't wait to up my game and bring even more of a workout to the Wilson Zumba family!
Classes I'm taking?
- Hip-notic Belly Dancing
- Flamenco Fever
- Master Class with Beto
- Miami Party
- Colombian Connection
- Hip to Strip
- Reggaeton Rebellion
- Zumba® Brazilian Carnival
Other things outside of my comfort zone on the schedule?
Wilson Women's Club 5k - May
TurboKick Certification - Summer?
FitBloggin'12 - September
Run for your Life - October
Not to mention the new tasks I take on at work every day that push my boundaries.
I love it.
I turn 30 in October. Going to be a whole new me by then!
My bubble? Consider it popped and I'm loving the freedom already.