This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week.
I drafted three different posts to talk about how important it is that we, as a culture, see the importance of treatment for eating disorders but nothing came out the way I wanted it to.
The fact is, I've dealt with disordered eating my entire life. My mother likes to tell people that, even as a very young child, I would ask for seconds of meals before even touching my first serving.
I was always "scared" of food, of there not being enough, of how it made me feel or didn't make me feel. I've never really been okay with food. I'm still not okay with food. I will probably fight with this my entire life.
I've gone through periods of my life where I've restricted, binged, binged and purged, binged again and, from time to time I've eaten like a normal reasonable person. I've also used laxatives and diuretics and appetite suppressants and miracle pills to assist with restricting, binging or purging.
I've had all the labels tossed at me by doctors over the year but I've managed to control it through talk therapy when symptoms became more pronounced.
Lately, I have had to deal with people trying to label me with exercise anorexia due to my extreme teaching loading. I worry that I'm headed in that direction and I'm working on reconciling that with my other symptoms and I'm talking more about exercise and food with those that are closest to me to try and ensure that I'm being objective about everything.
Eating disorders, like all other mental health issues, are serious and everyone should be informed and open to all the avenues of treatment and recovery. Be aware of your relationship with food and, if you feel like you need help, there are a myriad of resources out there for you to seek the help you need.
Check out NationalEatingDisorders.org or nedawareness.org for more information. Or talk to someone you love.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Screw you, immune system!
I'm sick. AGAIN. I swear people must think I go around licking door knobs and dirty tissues with the way I am constantly catching one bug or another.
I'm not. I swear.
I eat a good diet. I exercise. I wash my hands. I don't share food willy nilly. I drink my water. I take my vitamins. I do all the good things! I just can't seem to stay healthy.
It's driving me insane.
This time around it's a sinus infection and a generic throat infection. NOT STREP, PRAISE THE LORDS AND LADIES.
I woke up Friday morning and I had a lump in the back of throat, left side only. My throat was all raw and icky. I was not happy. Started popping Zicam and taking emergen-c and went about my day. Through the work day I started to feel grosser but I had things to do. A birthday party to make happen.
I left work a little after 4 and headed on to get the birthday party stuff picked up and set up at the studio. All done. Party time - I had the first 3 songs of the night. An 8 minute warmup, one dance song and one fitness song. I felt like I was going to pass out through all three. Once I was done, I watched, I took pics and I enjoyed seeing all the love pour down on the Sarah.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, SARAH-BELLA!
I went to bed early Friday night with the knowledge that I had the whole weekend off to rest and get better. That never happens, but Sue was the logical one and convinced me to cancel my TurboKick class Saturday morning and offered to take my Sunday class in my place. So from 7:15 Friday through 7:45 Monday I would have nothing to do but just be. Oh, how I appreciated that.
Because Saturday morning I was SICK. My face was puffy, my left eye was twitchy, I had no voice and I felt like I was hit by a truck. I went on to Immediate Care.
At immediate care, I learned something interesting. My tonsils have grown back! I had them out when I was 22 but apparently they came back. This could explain a lot of my health issues. This was the root cause of a lot of issues up until they were yanked out.
Anyway - fully occluded left sinus cavity, fluid behind my left ear and pustules behind my tonsils. NOT STREP but yeah. Sick. Antibiotics. Go home. Rest.
Yesterday I enjoyed a nice lunch out with folks before diving in to movies and TV watching before an early bed time.
I watched:
1. The Possession
2. Sound of my Voice
3. Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
4. Looper
5. Step Up: Revolutions
6. House at the End of the Street.
And tomorrow I will watch: Hotel Transylvania!
I feel well rested and very blessed to have had a weekend to take care of me. I'm off work tomorrow and am going to rest some more and hopefully I will be back at 100% by the time I go to class tomorrow night.
I'm not. I swear.
I eat a good diet. I exercise. I wash my hands. I don't share food willy nilly. I drink my water. I take my vitamins. I do all the good things! I just can't seem to stay healthy.
It's driving me insane.
This time around it's a sinus infection and a generic throat infection. NOT STREP, PRAISE THE LORDS AND LADIES.
I woke up Friday morning and I had a lump in the back of throat, left side only. My throat was all raw and icky. I was not happy. Started popping Zicam and taking emergen-c and went about my day. Through the work day I started to feel grosser but I had things to do. A birthday party to make happen.
I left work a little after 4 and headed on to get the birthday party stuff picked up and set up at the studio. All done. Party time - I had the first 3 songs of the night. An 8 minute warmup, one dance song and one fitness song. I felt like I was going to pass out through all three. Once I was done, I watched, I took pics and I enjoyed seeing all the love pour down on the Sarah.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, SARAH-BELLA!
I went to bed early Friday night with the knowledge that I had the whole weekend off to rest and get better. That never happens, but Sue was the logical one and convinced me to cancel my TurboKick class Saturday morning and offered to take my Sunday class in my place. So from 7:15 Friday through 7:45 Monday I would have nothing to do but just be. Oh, how I appreciated that.
Because Saturday morning I was SICK. My face was puffy, my left eye was twitchy, I had no voice and I felt like I was hit by a truck. I went on to Immediate Care.
At immediate care, I learned something interesting. My tonsils have grown back! I had them out when I was 22 but apparently they came back. This could explain a lot of my health issues. This was the root cause of a lot of issues up until they were yanked out.
Anyway - fully occluded left sinus cavity, fluid behind my left ear and pustules behind my tonsils. NOT STREP but yeah. Sick. Antibiotics. Go home. Rest.
Yesterday I enjoyed a nice lunch out with folks before diving in to movies and TV watching before an early bed time.
I watched:
1. The Possession
2. Sound of my Voice
3. Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
4. Looper
5. Step Up: Revolutions
6. House at the End of the Street.
And tomorrow I will watch: Hotel Transylvania!
I feel well rested and very blessed to have had a weekend to take care of me. I'm off work tomorrow and am going to rest some more and hopefully I will be back at 100% by the time I go to class tomorrow night.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)